Really must finish my list

Hello,

Once again, thank you for your wonderful messages of love and hope (and a few naughty ones that make me smile!) 😉

I want to compile my ‘bucket list’ and as you can see on my previous post I have made a start but I really must sit down and do it. And a thought struck me, what if I asked my followers to share their lists and perhaps I can steal a few ideas and find out about you all as well?!

So….please share with me your buckets in the comments! Thank you in advance xxxx

Karen x

A bad day

Hello all,

I really hope my last post did not offend anyone – I am worried as no-one has left a comment on it 😦

So I went to the fancy dress party and had a wonderful time, got a bit wild, got it all out of my system. But since then…

I’m trying to stay positive but I keep compiling a mental list of things I can’t do instead of focusing on what I can do.

I think I want these crazy experiences and meaningless relationships because the truth is, I can’t have a meaningful one – and if I did it would break my heart to know I can’t spend more than a couple of years with him at best.

I’m sorry for my more negative slant on things, it just all got on top of me today.

Karen x

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The party and….a picture!

Hi everyone,

Your comments regarding me posting a picture have been really interesting and confusing as I did not know what I should do and in a way, why I wanted to do it!

So, yesterday (Saturday) I was feeling sorry for myself and thinking about all the things I won’t be able to do with my life, then I get a call from my friend inviting me to a fancy dress party; strangely it was just what I needed and took my mind off of how I was feeling. I decided to wear something a little naughty and share with you what I wore. Please let me know what you think!

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To post or not to post (a picture)

Hi everyone,

Thank you all again so much for your support and kindness. I think the hardest thing about cancer for me, so far, is actually fighting depression. I do not want to sit and feel sorry for myself. I want to have fun.

Going back to my list I have already achieved the first goal – I quit my job. I have been wondering if I should do this for some time as a ‘normal’ life might make me forget about my illness. However, I’ve handed in my notice and in a months’ time I will be free (although won’t have a great deal of money!).

I know that there are a lot of very meaningful experiences that I will get to, I promise, but at the moment, my initial reaction to all of this is to go off the rails a bit. As part of my list I discussed some more sexual things I want to try and one of them is to post a risky picture of myself on here…. Although I feel this will be very liberating and fun I am worried that you might not want me to do this. So I was wondering if you could let me know what you think and what I should post!

Karen x

The list so far…

Hi everyone,

Thank you all so much for your lovely messages and support. I’ve been coming up with a list of everything I should do before I have to depart this world. Some are risky and a bit rude, I hope this doesn’t offend anyone but I want to be completely honest on this site. Here is the list so far, I want to add to it with your help.

1 – Quit my job – this is so I can have time to do all of the things I want!

2 – Spend a LOT of time with my friends and family

3 – Do volunteer/fundraising/charity work – a much better use of my time!

4 – Learn an instrument – am thinking guitar or piano

5 – Have a very long vacation – Not sure where yet

6 – Throw a huge, wild party and invite anyone and everyone! And I mean everyone!

7 – Act out some sexual fantasies that include a threesome

8 – Post some risky pics of myself on here – I am aware that you may not want to see these – I have been following a blog where the writer has been doing this and it seems so liberating and fun.

 

So this is the list so far, only 8 points – let me know what you think. I hope I haven’t offended anyone with my honesty xx

 

The C Word

Hi, my name is Karen, I am 25 and I live in London. It turns out that I have cancer – the C word no-one wants to hear. And at best, I have 2 years to live.

I am not writing this looking for sympathy but I felt blogging would help me come to terms with this.

I want to be OPTIMISTIC.

I have decided that if I am to die in 2 years that I want to make the most of the time I have and want to create a ‘bucket-list’ with your help. It is almost as if my actions will have no consequences so I want to be crazy, naughty, caring, thoughtful.

What I want to know is what should I do with the time I have left? I have no boyfriend, my Mum died three years ago and my Dad has never been in my life. But hey, I don’t want to tell a sob story here. I want to have fun!

So, to help me along my journey, please let me know what you think I should do with the time I have left and I may even do it and share what happened with you on here.

Please please please share your ideas on here, however crazy and naughty!

Karen xx