I really hope my last post did not offend anyone – I am worried as no-one has left a comment on it 😦
So I went to the fancy dress party and had a wonderful time, got a bit wild, got it all out of my system. But since then…
I’m trying to stay positive but I keep compiling a mental list of things I can’t do instead of focusing on what I can do.
I think I want these crazy experiences and meaningless relationships because the truth is, I can’t have a meaningful one – and if I did it would break my heart to know I can’t spend more than a couple of years with him at best.
I’m sorry for my more negative slant on things, it just all got on top of me today.